Poetry

Natural Man

I am an element of time

whereby the clock strikes when I speak

It’s all new, fluid

strange, I cry

Broiling to a carbon

black vapor

Here is where the heart beats

what we call chamber music

Today was harder than yesterday

and soon seems so impossible

Colors accentuate eyes

within a void

Let’s try, please, to do this

I am married to this endeavor

To open my eyes,

hurts, a new journey

There are many natural

things that I love

Take me away,

Bright lights flash

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Afterlife

Ice cold eyes

neon bar lights

depressed aura

Ice cold brew

-smirk-

Ice cold feeling

Ice cold heart

leaving him

Ice cold night

cigarette smoldering

shattered complexion

inhaling deep

Ice cold thoughts

-smirk-

Ice cold feeling

Ice cold woman

awaiting death

Ice cold night

alone again

she never cared

gold-digger!

Ice cold soul

-smirk-

Ice cold feeling

Ice cold past

hating romance

Ice cold night

staggering outside

cigarette glowing

oncoming traffic

Ice cold man

-smirk-

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sin eater

sIn

creation

the Order

force the truth

travel the abyss

trust the renegade

blood in, blood out

kill the demon spaWn

discover ways to serve

hide in the rising darkness

thE nightingale sings

there’s an enemY underground

find the other

hide truth

saving sOuls

await absolUtion

i am the sin eater

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White

White as a mid-December storm. 

White as the feeling of comfortable solitude.

White as clear air as it floats through a breeze,

White as the pureness of the world as it grows.

White as a fairy's fluttering wings as she floats,

White as a blooming hydrangea in the depths of winter.

White as the sight of lightning cracking through the night.

White as a melting snowman at the start of spring.

White as a dreamy thought lingering in the mind.

White as a unicorn trotting through the grass.

White as a snowflake hanging from a limb.

White as a bride dress on a wedding day.

White as passing clouds in a gentle sky.

White as a moon glowing in the dark.

White as ocean spray upon a shore.

White as a star guiding your way.

White as a saint throughout time.

White as a lie to tell a truth. 

White is good intentions.

Views on Substance Abuse: Depends

For me, my friend’s girlfriend being decapitated by a drunk driver as she was walking home from the store had quite an impact on the decision to not drink. I never cared to try it when I was younger and up until and after her death I never cared to and continued to enjoy being a trustworthy friend to call in case of a need for a designated driver. I am 28 and the best drugs I have had are Codeine and Vicodin under a doctor’s prescription. Aside from that, I have not tried a street drug, alcohol, nor smoked. Most 28 year olds cannot say that.

In our society it is deemed wrong to engage in such activities. I see limited issues of this nature in European nations. I believe there are uses for these items in private and semi-private atmospheres. Use of marijuana in the home I do not have a problem with. Otherwise it should be treated like alcohol. Use of alcohol in the settings it is currently used in should be perfectly fine. I believe that laws are taking away personal responsibility for these substances. In Nevada it is perfectly legal to walk around town with an open container. In California you’d be arrested. The standard of responsibility is higher with the individual in Nevada than it is in California. Here it is dictated what can and cannot be done and you follow the law accordingly. Other drugs such as Meth and Heroine have no real use other than altering brain function and chemicals.

The difference between use and abuse is ingesting the substance moderately as opposed to ingesting a substance chronically. A glass of wine with dinner or a shot of bourbon before bed is healthy according to many doctors. Using wine or bourbon as an escape from problems is unhealthy.

Interestingly enough, last year I wrote a resolution for the issue of marijuana use in the US. Maybe one day I will submit it to be considered for Federal law. I call it ATM-420 (Alcohol, Tobacco, Marijuana).

Factors Determining Care of Mental Health Consumers

This topic can get very touchy. While I respect and encourage people to use their rights responsibly (the “just because you can, doesn’t mean you should” kind of philosophy), I must insist that once people become a menace (meant in the kindest way) or hazard to those around them their rights should be nullified by next-of-kin. If there is no next-of-kin I do NOT believe that the government should be able to force someone into care unless they have endangered someone’s well-being/safety or committed a crime as is current law.
Simply “having” a mental illness does not denote a public safety risk. Many do not even realize they have an illness until it strongly manifests itself and others become aware of it. If the government were to be able to place people they “feel” had an illness in an institution think of the abuse of power that would come of it. The government works for us, not the other way around and a mentally ill person is still a rights-bearing citizen.
The issue with law is where do lawmakers and even families draw the line as to what classifies a person incompetent to make rational decisions? Some people disbelieve in modern medicine while their family members swear by it. Should a family be able to force this treatment on them regardless of how they feel about it? This also casts a shadow on the question of life v. death.
Why is the need to live so great? Why is death frowned upon? Many have argued against capitol punishment due to the belief that we have no right to take another’s life. Well on the flip side, do doctors (or anyone for that matter) have the right to keep someone alive? Who’s right to life or death is it?
For myself, I will choose to life as long as I can until I can’t bear it anymore and I will choose at that point where to go. Until then, it is nature’s choice what happens to me.